Not that knowing so many feel JUST LIKE YOU DO is helpful at all... actually, it just makes ME sadder...

Interesting that you wonder how folks who live alone "get themselves together" when they have no family/friends to help with motivation... When I'm "on one" I feel just the opposite... I feel like such a mess that having those people around feeling JUST as helpless, is even MORE of a burden. I feel guilty that they have to witness it, I feel guilty that I can't take care of THEM, I get in such a bad state that I couldn't ask for specific help if I tried, the words don't come out. I often threaten to leave and live alone, then the only one who would suffer would be me... I'm sorry you feel ******, and no, misery DOESN'T love company, imo. I just want to feel better, and leave everyone else out of it... If I can't feel better, then I really often wish I could be alone... they can't fix or help me, why should they have to deal with it? Seems if I have no one around to help me find my socks or make sure my hair is brushed... I am more likely to do it. If they are there, they stand around looking at me, a mess, crying my eyes out, they are confused and exhausted and at a loss for what to do. It's like I need a well trained "manager" who knows exactly what to do, because I sure as hell can't give instructions as to what it is I need... and that is unrealistic too. bleh, sorry if I'm "on one" it's been a hard couple of weeks... I was doing SOOOOO well for soooo long, and I screwed it up by missing a few days of meds, pushing myself too hard, and staying out way too late for several nights in a row, now I'm paying the price, and now I'm angry with myself... It didn't take NEARLY as long to "screw myself up" as it is "getting back on track"... Yeah, it gets better, but when you feel like this, there is no such thing... Crap.