Thanks so much for the reply. You so have a very similar situation. It helps to hear your opinion.
You wrote "The more you let it out—whether in writing or talking—the less power it has over you. "
thanks i"ll keep that in mind.I believe it to be true. I think that's why I came here . I did talk to my therapist about this last night. It's not the first time I talked about sex with a therapist but I told her I really want to address this issue because there's things I've been holding back on and I just don't want to do that anymore. It was helpful but I think I need more talking before I'll feel like I can put this issue to rest. I just wish I had more time with her. But I think maybe writing about things, like you we talking about might help.
Thanks again.