Both my husband and my therapist have told me I should be more responsive to my friends. This whole infertility thing has really taken over my life and while I can go out with couples, I find it difficult to be alone with friends. I just feel so sad all the time and can turn it off when there are a bunch of people, but when I am alone with one other it is difficult because I really do not want to share any information, thoughts or feelings with anyone (except on this board). Anyway, I am seeing a friend for lunch today and apparently she told her husband who told my husband who told me that she does not understand why I have not responded to any of her phone calls in the last year. When I meet her today I am tempted just to act as though nothing has happened, but a part of me feels that I should explain that this has nothing to do with her, that I have not been able to communicate with anyone. I feel I owe her that, but I also feel that this is too personal and I really don't want to reveal this information. I also don't want to talk about the multiple failed ivfs and DE ivfs and the fact that I am still without child and I don't want to talk about what I am planning on doing either. Which is basically the reason I have stopped all communications with everyone.