How can you be happy? That's a very good and important question. You need to work on self-esteem--valuing yourself, I think. You need to lessen the critic inside and be OK with the person you are. None of us are perfect. I am 61 now, nearly 62. When I was young, I thought it was all over when you hit 30; everything was downhill from there. Now that I'm older, I realize that as you mature, you develop a better perspective on life. Your body gets creaks and aches, but your mind and your soul still grow and flourish. You learn how to get along with others better and get wiser about so much of life. But we are all works in progress, lol--we all have ways we'd like to improve and things we want to do and accomplish.

You might take some time to think of some of the things you've already learned about yourself. There are probably things you like to do, and things you do well. Think of the things that are appealing to you, that give you pleasure. And you are aware now, of some of your shortcomings. Seems you are like me--you need meds to keep you on an even keel. That's likely genetics, that we can't do anything about. So, OK, we can do that. No problem. And if you work with your psychologist, you'll get a grip on some of the other issues that are bothering you. It may take some time, but you are getting help from a professional which is great. So many people don't have that. You do, and you are going to be OK. It's OK to have some confidence in that.

It probably won't be like a light switching on, but gradually, as you keep taking your meds and work on issues with your T, you'll find that one day, you are really enjoying your life quite a bit. You'll be happier with yourself. You'll realize, you're really OK. Life is not so bad for you. Doesn't matter what your parents do or don't do for you--you'll be OK on your own. You need to be kind to yourself, not critical. You'll be OK; I really believe it.