I hope you are feeling a bit better today! You realize that your coping skills are not beneficial to you and that means it's time to learn some new ones. I think you should let your parents know you need some help. Insurance usually covers the treatment and they can't help you if they don't know what's going on! If you absolutely can't talk to your parents, is there someone else you can talk to? You said if you wait too long, it will be too late...now is the time! Please take care of yourself and keep us posted!