... but while I am intriguing to some and I have been told i have a calming presence...

... I am equally off putting to some. I do have knack for making enemies. It seems that some of these people just feel need to attack me because I am different... or because of my presence. I am not a backstabber. I honestly don't care what most people do with their lifes (though I may try to advice them if they ask for it).

In several internet communities I stirred a controversy, making both friends and enemies. In RL I found people who like me muchly, but at the same... some are apparently scared of me (there is no reason) and some who disliked me strongly and did not bother to hide it.

I am not asking for sympathy and validation.... but I wonder *what* is it, and if there is a way to turn *it* off, if ever needed in the future. I don't want to change who I am drastically... but I want to handle myself better at times.