I have been seeing a T for about a year. The reasons for going were low thoughts, which I thought were due to entirely situational factors (recent and past). Although I think I have benefited from the T, I am frustrated that I still have many annoying symptoms plus I still get very down and SI.

I have been reading loads of stuff and had reason to look up bipolar II on the internet - I cold relate to many of the symptoms - well 99% of them actually and e-mailed my T as it had scared me a little. Of course I understand that he is not able to diagnose, however he didn't dismiss it. He later e-mailed me again and asked what I thought I might gain from a formal diagnosis.

Just now I have been sitting thinking and I recall describing a social event to him when I highlighted that I suddenly felt very confident and chatty and a firiend had asked what I had jsut taken (I hadn't taken anything). I remember my T dwelled on this for a while before me moved on to talk about something else.

I am now wondering whether he has thought all along that I may be suffering from this diagnosis and I am now feeling really let down and patronised. I know I could talk to hiim about this, but I am not sure whether I trust him to give me an honest answer. Not sure what I am expecting from posting this, but writing it down has at least organised it all for me and stopped it going round in my head.