Hi dexter. I'm really sorry to hear that. I wish there was something i could say that would make it better. Although, you do have really good thought skills. Anyway, everyone needs someone sometime. So, I know that you probably won't believe this but, maybe you'll meet someone online. You mentioned that you don't want to be in a relationship because you need to be. well, it seems to me like you always needed something. It seems like you were putting your life on hold helping your friends and family, that you just got preoccupied and didn't focus as much on relationships. As long as your alive, it's never too late. Yes, i did read your post, and it looks like you have given up. Well don't because you aren't the only one in the world with arthitis. Maybe, you'll find someone else who has it as well. as for the pain, can a chiropractor help, or any pain relievers? by the way, this is not meet to be insensitive, i just don't want you to give up yet.
-Audrey