Vanish as if I'd never existed. I wish my parents could just gradually forget about me till the day my absence no longer hurts them. I wish people could just stop asking me about how my life is going since all they are is curious. Them knowing about my failures only makes them feel good about their life choices. I can see that. How happy they become when they try to comfort me. How they love comforting me....it makes them feel so good. Yes, they did a good deed didn't they....they comforted a person who's swimming in misfortune....

I have nothing good to offer anyone anymore. I have no joy to offer, no success, nothing good. I am the absolute zero and the planet can really do just fine without me. No idea why God keeps me around.

I wish I could vanish.