All I have been really wanting is that one true, seemingly perfect friend. I have only one friend that comes close but she's an online friend who lives no-where near me! I just... I really want it, so bad it hurts. I want that special someone who I can really just... cry on their shoulder and let all my pain and worries out. I want them to hug me back and just completely understand and comfort me. And tell me that it's going to be okay. I long for this touch and embrace and soothing words so much... I'm so lonely. I spend my time day-dreaming about that friend and how they would be...

But I just don't know what to think anymore... I have lost so many best friends and friends I thought would be with me until the end. I don't know who to trust or where to go. I'm afraid that once I meet someone that matches that perfect image, they'll just end up leaving me. I don't know who to trust, but I know I just need SOMEONE to listen and comfort me. Someone I can show the real inner chambers of my heart... I don't know if that person exists, and even if they do... I'm afraid I'll be too blinded by paranoia and lack of trust that I'll miss them right as they go by.

Can anybody relate?