granite, I also wish we had a "redo" button to be able to replicate the really good sessions. I wish I could bottle it up. But my T will say "those feelings live inside of you, and you can access them any time." I know her so well by now that I know that's what she'll say!

poetgirl, I wish your T hadn't taken away the hugs. Have you told her it makes it harder for you to ask others for them, and to ask for what you need? I think that is very important for you to discuss, not to get her to change her mind, but to work on those feelings. Does she know how bad you feel about it? I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you feel bad. I'm surprised at the way my therapy is; I'm still in awe that my T does things I thought weren't "allowed" in therapy.

You, know, one of my former Ts told me that most Ts do not touch their clients, and she discouraged me from looking for one that would. It's not the generally accepted practice, for those with BPD or not, she said. I know that's not going to make you feel any better, but I thought I would point it out. I hope you will accept my hugs too.