I completely understand what you are going through. All through middle school I felt so alone without one true friend. During high school I gave people the title who definitely didn't deserve it because they just treated me like a sidekick. People always ask what I mean by that and it means exactly what it says... I seem to attract drama queens who think life is a movie starring them with a funny sidekick (me)

People say I am just too picky about friends, but I just don't think I should have to lower my standards for people. Why can't people just not suck so much? I had a new best friend recently, but she treated some of my other friends like crap, she always has to get what she wants, and expected me to keep up with all of her work and junk when she decided not to show up for class.

I definitely have a hard time trusting people though. And I'm not really one to open up to anyone anyway... so it could very well be my fault... And I too spend time day dreaming about how things could be... sigh... especially when there's nothing good on T.V. and I'm forced to watch something like The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants and they are all close and it kinda makes my eyes get all watery from jealousy...

Long story short... I understand completely. This issue has caused a large chunk of depression in my life.