(((((BlackCanary))))))

This reminds me a little bit of when you found something on google earth with your old T and showed it to him (right? something like that).

I think there is something so enticing about bending the boundaries...finding out what T is "really" like, having a special connection with T, testing the limits...but I really believe in the end that the boundaries are there for a good, good reason, and that it probably hurts us more than helps us when we cross those boundaries.

I actually had a chance to see my T in the community recently. He was leading a seminar that I didn't really "qualify" for, but he said I was welcome to come. In the end, I didn't go. Even though we talked about it, and I knew it was okay, I felt like it might feel like too much for *me*. I'm working hard to NOT trigger myself, and I thought it might be triggering in some way.

I hope this doesn't sound harsh, because that is SO not how I mean it. My opinion is just that if you can't discuss it with your T ahead of time, it's probably not the right thing to do.