You all are great helpers! @rainbow thanks for that personal experience!

I did have major transference issues with the prior therapist, and with him the boundary was very, very tight - he didn't want to share any info. This T is quite different. She knows how it went with the old T also, she is different on purpose.

@swimmergirl - "trying to sabotage" - yes, I can see this as resistence/testing - in June she's being moved to another center that is 10 miles away from the current location and I don't want to trek out there (another 30-40 min away). And my old T left for a new job in June last year, so I'm pulling up that bitterness (all my therapists leave me in June). So if I do a dumb thing then that sabotages things....

Perna, this is a great insight - "The father daughter relationship you imagine between T and her father might be what you wish was between you and yours" - and with my old T lots of the transference was seeing him as a father figure. And I was very insecure as to that T's view of me (does he like me?). But with this T now I am very sure of her view of me, she just tells me

Part of seeking the feedback here is to do some of the work before I talk to her (we have a quick call scheduled for late on Friday). I like to go into the discussion with both the challenge and some insights into the resolution.