So glad to hear you have a plan and you are going to work on things. Why don't you print out all of this here and let your T read it at your next visit. That would be an easy way of telling her the things that are bothering you that you haven't confessed yet, as well as your plan to deal with all of it. I'll be she'll be impressed with it as I was--you have a lot going for you, I think, from the sounds of things. You go, girl!