Sounds like you are doing a good job with the letter, and with realizing you have to wait. I know waiting can be hard.

You might do a variation on an exercise I was taught in the hospital. I was told, when I have a negative thought, write it down. Then right down 10 reasons why it might not be true. Like: my friend Dawn doesn't like me anymore. OK: 1. She is just worried about her daughter and is irritable right now because of that. 2. She is similarly worried about her mother, who isn't well. 3. Her husband might have lost his overtime $ again. 4. Her son might have lost his job again. 5. I may have misinterpreted what she said. etc. go to 10 before you stop. It's really helpful in changing your feelings about the negative thought.

OK, so you have to wait. Right down 10 pleasant things you can do while waiting:
1. Write down a list of things you'd like to do when you are better and have more energy. 2. Go outside with a cup of coffee in the morning and listen to the birds sing. 3. Play with your neighbor's kitten or puppy. 4. Go to the mall and look at the store windows. Pretend you can buy one piece from each window--what would it be? 5. Read a chapter in the new book you haven't read. 6. Look online for a new cute image you can send to some of your friends on PC. 7. Listen to some old albums you used to enjoy a lot--sit with a cup of tea and cuddle in a warm comforter and just "veg" to music, old "favs". You get the idea.

Just saw a cartoon on the virtue of "patience"--has a dog sitting looking at his food bowl. He's being very patient and waiting--there is a skunk eating out of it! (Go to Rohag's profile and look at his albums--there is another thing you could do while waiting--he's got a lot of cute ones!)