i am in a relationship right now and i feel like theres this constant pressure for me to change, to be different, better. its not something i imagine because the person i'm with frequently voices his opinions about me, that i need to be more stable, that i need to get myself together, and if i listed everything he expects of me i'd still be typing in an hour from now. i've been open about myself, and my past, about the fact that i have difficulty trusting people, that i think very little of myself, that i have issues with intimacy. i just dont know if i should put my foot down and say just accept me the way i am or leave. if they did leave i would be devastated, but then again the pressure to change every aspect of myself is starting to make me a little crazy. lately i'm afraid to be honest when i'm having a panic attack or feeling anxious because i think to myself, its going to be another checkmark on his list of my faults. i'm trying desperately to get my life together, to be a better person, to be reliable and dependable and about a million other things, but i cant control this aspect of my life. i can not make myself stable and its frustrating the *&^% out of me. i take my meds, i do my breathing and still i have the panic and the fear and i am driving the person i love away. what do i do?