thank you all so much. stayed upall night. so many people to talk to. we haven't heard anything else. am leaving now for OK. will take about 6 hours. thanks, thanks, thanks. i feel like a steam roller has gone right down my middle. xanax didn't help a bit last night. guess there's some things that you just have to endure and try to breathe and go forward with. josh's dad is having horrible time. his name is bruce. hug him. he is a sweet, sweet man. xoxoxo pat