Sky, in the past five years I've had to deal with several new physical diagnosis, some of which are fairly debilitating. So, I can understand some of what you are talking about.

I looked up the word acceptance online and it seems there are several levels of acceptance. One being acknowledgement.....I think most of us can acknowledge that we have a problem. Another was coming to terms with....I think that's a hard one. Other descriptions were tolerance of the problem and willingness to believe. For me, the willingness to believe is the hardest......believing that this is how it will be......and even get worse.

I had more to say but can't think of it right now......you aren't the only one.