yeah, I guess I found a trend. I quit smoking about a month ago. Was thinking that was a factor. I use to live alone but now I live in a house with 3 other people and it's loud. I'm also not really familiar with the software I am using (it's French). My family also makes me a bit nervous...they like to have things really clean. Even if something doesn't work, or is useless, if it's not clean, it's time to yell a conversation about it. I also get comments like I have no willpower... this coming from my brother-in-law.

I kinda jumped the gun when I moved here and they kinda jumped the gun when they asked me to move here (they have no understanding of bipolar). They can scan sheets of info on bipolar and still they do not understand. If I could financially leave here I would, but I really can't for another couple of months. I'm trying to look for a job, but my sister put me back on the project since I came up with a solution... let me work on just one computer instead of three depending on what everyone else is doing, also let me work on one version of the software I need to post these cards (I am using two different versions because one computer can't handle the latest version). Also, as I type this, I here 2 different tv sets going. I don't expect everything to be perfectly quiet, but my hearing is quite good and it is hard for me to concentrate. My sister and her hubby both have offices they can go into. I have a loft which is open to the rest of the house.

You know, I just feel like I really screwed up by moving here. I may have "things" and be away from dangerous drug dealers and stuff, but at least I had my freedom. I've tried talking to these people, but they just aren't very smart or they don't seem to get it.

I have a support meeting on Wednesday night for bipolar and I don't have my license for here yet, so my sister is going (they have a group for families of bipolar people), but she can't drive because she has seisures, so her husband has to go too...maybe he will learn something who knows...doubt it.