((SusanJane)) (((Sky))) Thank you for caring, it means so much to me. I'm trying to be open and accept the help from other people, because I know when I can- I want to help and I care of others too. Right now I'm not much of a helper since I fear I'm going insane. Need to shut off these thoughts somehow. I wrote my T today, telling her how I feel. I force myself to do things altho I fear them. Altho so many dark thoughts right now.... I'm searching ....