Hey all,

So I've been talking to my real father for a couple weeks now and it's really bringing up a lot of emotions. he was a drug dealer and left when I was 2 for prison. Enter my step-dad whose a pedophile. Needless to say, now my dad is a part of my life i'm wondering what kind of mess he's going to leave when he inevitably leaves again. Ever since i re-met him in 2001 he's had this pattern of coming and going. I can't take it anymore because I feel emotionally that a pedophile/rapist will come along after him and then my life turns to crap again. I want to self-soothe by acting out on addictions but that's just not the right choice. Help! What do I do?

Love and hugs,
Tara