Trauma work seriously screwed me up. I did CBT with a T that only worked with SA survivors... That helped. She gave me skills for managing flashbacks and body memories until they gave up and stopped haunting me. My current T knows I have "significant abuse" in my past because it is in my psych eval but she will not talk to me about it unless I am having flashbacks or body memories again. Heck even the last time I had a flashback she asked how I felt about the whole thing, I said they have gotten kind of old... I tell them to shut up and I went back to sleep... She said we didn't need to talk about it then. I also did a lot of work outside of therapy though... Like learning to trust men again with the help of the priest at my college... Just someone safe who knew I was scared and may act funny because of it who let me move close then run the he!! away as much as I needed. However... I think if we just leave it be and work around the trauma it stays in our bodies causing physical illness. So... I work with a massage T who knows a lot about therapy, has a lot of experience with trauma survivors, does massage and body work. Her work is SO awesome!!! She will be working someplace on my body and a memory comes up. She knows it weather I say anything or not because she can feel it in how my body is responding to her. The memories are always faint/vague and never overwhelming. I can tell her the memory or not it doesn't matter... Then... it just fades out and is gone! some memories have to come up a few times before they let go but there is never and "drama". I can talk about any of my trauma experiences and how they have impacted me now without triggering or getting upset. I have even talked about my abuse history to classes of people learning how to work with traumatized kids. I have also met with a diagnostician and we talked extensively about my past to rule it out of my ASD. She was SO impressed with the work that was done and even said I no longer meet the criteria for PTSD! All that being said... trauma work DOES work for some but not all. If it is not working for you I suggest looking into other options... there are a lot of them out there especially if you will "work outside the box".
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There’s been many a crooked path
that has landed me here
Tired, broken and wearing rags
Wild eyed with fear
-Blackmoores Night
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