I totally understand how you feel....and the fear in telling your family/friends... I hide my symptoms from my family and even my own husband the very best I could up until very recently...and weve been married 7 years...I called around till I found a place I could go to get therapy and meds...although I did end up needing to do inpatient for a few weeks and got on better meds there. Depending on your age...sorry ive not looked on your page if its there...do some research in your town. I wish you the very best in finding what and who you need to...please do try, you shouldnt just suffer.