Big hugs Elley. ((((((((((((((Elley)))))))))))) I am so sorry, I am sure that is painful for you. I might be going through something similar myself very soon, everything is still up in the air for now. I agree with everyone else. Talk to you T about it. If you can't talk, write it down and give it to T and have him read it during your session with you there. Maybe even have T read it aloud to give voice to your feelings. I know how painful it is to even think about ending therapy with your T before you are "done". Hopefully this will help.