Although there is a ton of negative in this paragraph there is also great potential. An abrupt change in your life gives you the opportunity to pursue new things. A crappy apartment can be turned into a beautiful nest built exactly as you want it. No compromise with a partner. Paint the walls pink with purple poka dots and put doilies on every chair (if that makes you happy) Half custody allows you to relax a little and sort of grandma your kids. Treats or special activities you wouldn't normally allow. Hugs and playtime. In regards to the skills you have them, I promise. Learn something new or do something you used to enjoy but quit due to time or patience. As to the friends. We are here and the local friends will come in time. Call someone you lost contact with. My mum re-connected with her best friend she had not spoken to in 10 years. Most importantly keep talking, to us, to loved ones. It keeps that pressure from building to dangerous levels.