I'm sorry you are struggling with these feelings.
I struggle with similiar and have not been able to get past them, so I don't use chat-- but so so wish I could, as I get lonely and would like to
make some more friends and could use that added support
... but....
the upset feelings are too overwhelming
....*sigh*....

hope you can find a way to cope and
are able to use chat to your advantage.

best to you

fins