Wow. It takes great courage to throw your cards on the table and say "help." It looks as though you have created a great plan to get yourself back on track. See a therapist and get back on meds. I would have to say go for it. You deserve to live your life not slog through it. If it takes medication and therapy than do it. I once was told by my therapist it takes just as long to unscrew yourself as it did for you to get twisted up. Another words it takes a while to get all the ducks in a row and move past the emotions that have been beating on you since day 1. In this instant world we have begun to expect that everything is supposed to be fixed right now. It feels like slamming into a wall when we discover that nothing is instant, even instant noodles. You still have to wait for the water to boil and the noodles to soak it up. Give yourself the opportunity to soak up some therapy and allow the meds to keep you even enough to be objective.