Thanks, Perna.
I wake up in the middle on the night worrying about all sorts of things... Most of them, I'll recognize, I need not to worry about them but yet I do... Like ending up old and alone and being eaten by one of cats... hehehe.

And the things actually are of concern, well some are just out of my control and others, well, I might take a page from your book and do something about them and stop procrastinating. But do you know the feeling that just thinking about doing something makes so anxious, let alone doing it?

I've had several relapses over the years and it is like you said, it's not sudden. But it took me awhile to recognize the signs of bad days to come. I'm more in control of that in these past couple of years, still my anxiety is one tough cookie, for lack of better expression. The depressed side of me is sort of laying low for now but my anxiety is through the roof... Hence the constant rumination, or maybe I'm anxious because I'm over thinking and second doubting myself all the time?

*Sigh*

Thank you!
Hugs,

Addie