HMMMM, Gee, we have to think about that, no, I dont think your a sadist, whats been going on to make you think that? You see, when bad things happen and we lose our way, guess who gets blamed? You have said it here and you are punishing this person.

You know, I have lost track now of how many people are blaming themselves here in PC. I guess if you look up the current number of members, well, that would give you an idea of how many people are in here blaming themselves. Oh, yeah, and there are so many ways we punish ourselves too.

Oh, yeah theres a lot of people that feel just like you. Right to every last word of what your saying in this thread.

Guess what, welcome back, something went right for a while and then you fell back in to punishing yourself again, so, it sounds like you need to discuss it and just get back on the right track.

My name is Open Eyes and I am always willing to listen. Come on back and we all can hash it out and not only get you back on track but do it for ourselves too. That's what support is all about. Now remember that this is a give and take place so you are going to have to give too. Yeah, your going to have to dig in that good person you keep punishing and let her hang out too.

Open Eyes