I am having issues sleeping again.Is it normal for a guy to hold you in place when you wriggle away?I mean I know what the replies will be.But,are guys so driven that they lose control to an extent?Can they really not be near a person without 'going there'?I don't know what to feel.My kids don't live here anymore.My youngest barely comes by.Just now,and then in the early evening,and right before he gets out the door for his college carpool.So sleeping on the couch isn't a help.I know I can sleep in the camper,but,I was trying to be 'normal' and thought that after having left,things would be different.My son would notice if I start sleeping in the camper again.I could stay up for the hours of 5:30 pm to 4:30 am,and avoid things that way,but it takes time to alter your sleeping habits.I know I am going to have to live with this.Is there some way to brainwash me that everything is alright?So then I could accept it?It's hard to feel strongly one way or another because I guess he does love me?Idk....I'm not making any sense.Well,I did get another hour of sleep,so I can probably stay up longer today.Sorry I'll quit,I know I am not making sense.