I'm so sorry its soooo difficult. I hear you. PLEASE please understand something though-- I understand the line of thinking that goes "I feel like no matter what I do pppl walk away"-- that was my WHOLE life for a lot of years. I totally get that. But PLEASE hear me--PLEASE-- it is NOT YOU. Its NOT YOU honey. People leaving or walking away-- that's about THEM. Thats stuff that they have going on inside them that makes them walk away. I PROMISE. Its not something that you do/don't do/say/ dont say/ etc. Its about THEM, something going on in their head or their hearts that makes them decide they want to walk away. Please know that. And if someone decides to walk away from you-- it is their loss. I have deal with loss time and time again, and this is something that took me a very long time to learn.