Sherry, I can relate. My husband died in November, My best friend in April and my dog in October. I feel like something is going to get me too. Its turned into an OCD thing and it keeps getting worse,. I keep worrying about diseases, Rabies of all things. I dont it doesnt make sense but it keeps happening and I think Im destined for hospitalization. And im so worried about dying becasue all Ihave is my kid. Im supposed to be a professional. And Im going nuts. I feel so bad for my daughter. I wish I had advice for you. It sounds like youre having panic attacks. maybe xanax or ativan would help. Death sucks. It never seemed this real to me bbefore. And now becasue everyone died Ihave no one to tell. Thanks Gd for this place but still, whos going to want to listen to my %#@&#! all the time. i wish I had an answer. Grief sucks. If I find a clue I will let you know, In the mean time I will pray for you. Hugs.