Well, Im flipping out again. It keeps happening. Im going nuts and its getting away from me and thres nothing I can do, Its like I see the train but I just cant step off the tracks...I have developd this really bizarre phobia and Im getting the whole OCD thing really bad I cant make it stop. I feel so bad for my daughter that her father died and she is stuck with me, a nuit for a mother. Im all she has and I cant hold it together. I was at my older daughter house. And she tells me the moving company across the street has bats. well, I was in her bedroom, which is connected to the attic and its messy and i cant stop thinking that there was one in the mess or something...I keep reading how they can bite you and you wont feel it. Or they dont even have to bite you- you can get it from the poo if it dries up and blows around. I cant shut my brain off and Im going to wind up scaring my kid. Or what if I do get something and die. Im all she has...arggh