Welcome to PC ! I am sorry that you are going thru all this. I have to wonder , have you been checked out by a Doctor to see if what you are experiencing could be seizures rather than panic attacks? I have a friend with a seizure disorder, and you could be her writing what you did ! If you havent seen a neurologist, I think I might check out the possibility of a seizure disorder, as what you describe really leans that way, in my humble opinion. IF you have already had tests done, and it is not a seizure disorder, I hope that you contact your prescribing Doctor ASAP and see what can be done to help you !! Good luck ! As the others have said, many of us have suffered horribly with panic disorder, and are here for you when you need us !