Have you made a list of what could happen to you. So let me get this right as long as you have ED you won't date right? You said your falling back hardcore right? Hardcore to me means a very dark place wear it may take many many many years to come out. You may never come out unless you see the real you than it mite be to late. Is that fair to him to wait? Do you really think he will wait and stick around and watch you slowly kill your self? I don't mean to be harsh. When your ready to get better it will take everything and more to get better you have to be willing to do what ever it takes to get better or that monster will win. ED and my life and I was indeed hardcore took me 5 Treatment Centers some of the best places like Center for Change, Rosewood, Maybe you know these places. Hade a feeding Tube in my stomach for 3 months to carry around. Not fun lost friends peoples trust. Lets just say I got a second chance. Please think before you start this path Please don't take this wrong I have seen people died because of ed My friend had a daughter that was 21 never new she was anorexia until it was to late. For some reason something woke me up to check on something on facebook and I stop here. To find this to read your form and could not go back to sleep before saying something. Sign "Avoice