Better I guess...I have lost so much though I really was just thinking "Oh great".

My father pulled up our old house address on google. I don't know why he did this but I almost started crying. It was the thing where you can zoom in on the house aerially.

We watched the Wedding Crashers and I started crying. Weddings don't make me happy. I have PTSD and I am sick of it.

I am sick of watching everyone else have a life when mine was great and now I am drowning just because I went on a date, and walked in a courtroom.

I am sick of hearing "Oh. today was bad bec. my boyfriend left me".

Excuse me? The past three years have been bad because my parents sold our home after 23 years, sold our lives, I got physically ill, recovered, and was conned by a complete jerk and dragged through he** for 9 months and then, when I thought it was over, got subpoenaed.

I am sorry but I can't relate to "Gee, my boyfriend left me".

The only person I ever trusted and who has ruined me is now walking because I can't testify. It has been 1 year and 7 months since this started and I am sick of dealing with it.

They finally stopped calling me and bothering me bec. I got my therapist to write a note saying I was too sick.