Hi Littleyellow,

Glad you posted... you are not bothering anyone. Our struggles are why we're here... we're here for you too.
I'm so sorry to hear how rough things have been lately. I can relate... My depression has been pretty bad lately as well and looking for a job has me (also) feeling like curling up in a ball...
Is there a chance you could go back and try a few more combinations of meds? I know it seems to take forever but maybe there is one that might help a bit. Although at times the light can feel so far away, the best way to treat depression is the combination of medication and therapy. Be gentle with yourself. Depression is a serious illness. Keep reaching out and asking for help. Maybe you need to try a different set of doctors? You are important and you deserve to feel better.
A relationship break up is super stressful... I know you said you are in a small town, but are there any support groups?
Sending supportive thoughts your way...
E