I fear that my T might see me in the light of less good/less talented/ less loveable than a lot of her patients, so I agree perna, I was sort of provoking her to come up with the "right" response to reassure me. It is important to me to do reality testing, because I've legimiately had a lot of periods where i've lost contact with reality (from the depression) and I want to learn to get better adjusted to reality--- and I don't know how to signal her if this might be one of those times and I don't know if I can trust her to get me out. so i wanted to make sure i'm not reading more hate than is actually there in that statement.