I've been in recovery from child sex abuse for about 7 years, so it really surpises me how often I still notice new things about myself. I was at a reception tonight with a bunch of people I don't know and for some reason a lot of people asked if I was in a relationship and all that. I tried to ignore them, but one even tried to connect me with a group. I'm not in a relationship and I don't want to. The truth is I hate being touched just a little bit more than I really want to be close to someone, so I just keep to myself and act too busy. All the way home though I just wanted to scream or cry or something. Honestly, I feel lonely -- a lot -- but I don't want anyone close, and all those questions tonight were a very unwelcomed reminder. I've come so far in my recovery, but this part is very hard and very painful. Thanks for letting me share.