Oh, I'm sorry your wife hurt you like that. She really didn't mean to, I'm sure of that. You have to imagine how you would behave if you were to take drugs that made you "lose it". Your wife's brain occasionally overloads her with chemicals and hormones that act like a drug... it's not her fault. There are things that you can both do that will help prevent that kind of behaviour in future... firstly I think she needs to be medically compliant. And I think there are books I could recommend, if either of you have time or are interested?