basically when like this on line support groups are not what you need to help yourself. The best help for yourself when you are like this is the local ER / police/ ambulance and therapist services in your area. All website administrators and owners of sites I have been members of restrict or ban members who are in active threatening frames of mind because it causes everyone else on the site to become upset and feel helpless because there is no way we can while on line actually prevent a person from carrying out a suicide threat - everyone (or most every one) logs in under fake names, sometimes even locations. The only person that could locate the person is the owner of the website IF they have tracking capabilities, and then all they can do is place a call to the persons local police and the person is either arrested and taken to the local ER for immediate involuntary commitment or they are arrested for making false threats of harm to themselves and or others. Both making suicidal threats real or fake is illegal in the united states. Which is why admistrators restrict or ban such behavior - regardless of the persons mental diagnosis.