mostly fearful–avoidant, with some dismissive mixed in.

I was terrified of my mother an two older sisters (to this day I have NO idea why) and my father was a very emotionally distant parent. I didn't have any other adult figure in my life.

I've always been afraid to open up to people and unable to express how miserable i was. I grew up very independent (at eight i was doing my own laundry and staying at home alone) and was never really emotionally close to anyone (though I did and do have a group of friends I consider my best friends, but I don't confide in them ever). Part of me is ok with it and another part desperately wants to change this because I can see that the way I interact (or lack there of) affects me.

Anyways, thanks for posting!