Elana,
So sorry you had a rough day. It sounds like you managed to do some really constructive things in the midst of feeling crappy. On those kinds of days, just getting out of bed can be a major accomplishment.

Sometimes (OK, often) I also feel like I'm in a place in my life where I'm not accomplishing much... you are inspiring me with the idea that you went back to the Al-Anon reading because THAT is what you are doing right now. I wonder if this might be a time in my life where I am really working on myself, which is very different from being stuck... I wonder if I could give myself permission to do this. Thanks for helping me to see this more clearly.

I hope you can give yourself credit for the hard work you've been doing... even though depression tells you that you are lost and ineffectual, that is just the depression talking. My impression of you from your various posts is that you are very committed and determined in working through the things you are struggling with... very different from being "lost and ineffectual."

Take care. Wishing you a better day tomorrow.
peace,
garden gal