First of all: THANK YOU for your replies. It is nice to know people care. More coming up. Thank you for reading.

This is about Sarah. As funny as it is I made my peace with the fact Lisa got under my skin and she will probably stay there for some time. I haven't seen her in a while so I don't really think about it anymore as much as I used to. I do feel uncomfortable when I run into her friends thinking they all hate me, but that's why I have my friends telling me I'm being silly and should focus on those people who care about me.

This is about Sarah. I didn't like her from the beginning. Too chatty and too weird. I tried being extra nice to her so Lisa wouldn't notice how jealous I was of her being with us all the time. When the problems with Lisa happened-Sarah promised to talk to her about it-she never did. (well-that I know of) They are still friends on FB even though Lisa stopped hanging out with her about the time she stopped hanging out with me. One could argue she just *let me have her* but my opinion is-Lisa wanted Sarah out of the picture-as so many people do.

This is the first thing I resent. Why didn't Sarah ever talk to Lisa? If not about me-then about herself being mistreated by her? She said she would. This is what encouraged me to get upset about the situation-knowing I wasn't the only one seeing Lisa's behavior as something bad. After my fight Sarah suddenly changed her story. It was Lisa's fault at the beginning-now it was our fault. She promised she would talk to her-she didn't. She kept talking to me about this strong emotional connection between Lisa and me which made me seek out Lisa so many times. I didn't have to do that-of course-but I felt bad about hurting her. I should have stuck to my initial theory-Lisa was being convenient and selfish-it happens-I get like that at times. Sarah also managed to convince me Lisa's friend was the one plotting the whole fight thing which made me hate Lisa's friend for no reason. I mean-she doesn't say hi to me anymore-but I think that's understandable considering Lisa and I don't speak anymore and the last time we spoke-I strongly implied I thought her friends had something to do with the fight *again Sarah talking-not me*

So I stuck with Sarah for a while-main reason was to prove you don't have to ditch your old friends in order to find new ones. I got a lovely bunch of people around me and tried to integrate Sarah into the group. It failed miserably-for the most part. The three girls I'm closest to today (including one that has become like a sister to me and I love her very much), can't stand Sarah. They are not mean-but honest. Sarah has a way of discussing her own personal issues in front of everyone-talking about the supernatural as it was true and talking without letting anyone else speak.

Even though Sarah listened to my problems and try to give me advice *bad ones though*, there was always a part of me that thought I was simply being manipulated by her. She had a way of making me feel bad about myself. She would hear me speak of my friends and say things like: I am glad they are not your only friends and you have persons A and B. Why would she say that? Also she told me somebody close to me will try to manipulate me but she won't tell me who. It's like she's playing these little games. But I got sick of it. I saw in her a connection to Lisa and the minute I gave up on that-I started noticing things about Sarah that made me feel very uncomfortable.

Sarah also told me some very disturbing things about herself-I will not repeat them but let's just say I advised her to seek professional help. These things were borderline delusional and they scared me. Even now I'm not sure she actually believes it but was testing my belief and my loyalty. I talked about it to my close friends and they advised me to stay away from her. She doesn't show any signs of being potentially dangerous but me being so naive and sensitive-she could easily play with my mind.

I started distancing myself from Sarah a couple of months ago. I saw there was no future but didn't want to be like Lisa and ditch an old friend for a new one. So I kept forcing it even though I was scared of her manipulating me into something. Maybe I was being paranoid-I don't know. During Easter my friends and I went on a trip. It was an organised trip, not an individual one like it was initially supposed to be-but I kind of left that part out with Sarah fearing she would want to join us. My friends told me they didn't want her on the trip so I kept it quiet even though Sarah knew we were going to do something. I promised her I would take another trip with her once I got back.

On this trip I broke my leg-badly. Had a surgery and spent a lot of time in the hospital. I have been basically dependent on others for the past two months. Sarah lives two minutes away from me and she still hasn't come to see me. Only time she called is when her flatmate needed a favor. My theory is she is mad at me for not inviting her to the trip. I know I have been distancing myself from her-and honestly-if I actually cared about her I would say something. She is leaving in a month and will probably want to talk about the whole thing. Bad as I may sound-I couldn't care less if I were never to talk to her again-but I know she'll seek me out and want to have a long talk about how much I hurt her. I understand she is hurt-but was their manipulation involved or not? Am I being too paranoid or not??

Again, THANK YOU SO MUCH for your advice.