Having a little bit of a tricky time at the moment. We've had a friend visit, so most nights there's been something on. And too much drinking. Not enough time for ME, nor sleep, nor my relationship and horse. We're heading towards winter, so it gets dark early, and I battle to ride after work.
Work is always high pressure, huge workloads, little if any praise, people being selfish and stepping on other's toes. Lost it yesterday with a colleague and had a real rant at her. Was surprised how many things I managed to string together and how many emotions, feelings and gripes I actually had.
But it got me down. Feeling really down, and not sure if it's depression or what.

I have been lurking in the wings and posting where I can.
I haven't stopped T altogether yet, but wound down to every 2 weeks. And I think my T understands I'm nervous to stop T. There are a lot of uncertainties I have as a person, and we're working on that.

My meds have been doing a great job - so I must say I am fortunate.
Trying to get my bf to understand bipolar and its impact on me - which is not easy.

But on the whole, the last few months have been fairly stable; just a little difficult at the moment. I know you'll understand.

I'm frustrated at myself @ work as I CANNOT get through the work load. I upset others as I'm "letting them down". But I'm doing my best. My T thinks I may be a bit of a perfectionist and be too hard on myself.

Sorry about the jumble... That's where my head is at.
So, that was a small update and a rant...