Having a little bit of a tricky time at the moment. We've had a friend visit, so most nights there's been something on. And too much drinking. Not enough time for ME, nor sleep, nor my relationship and horse. We're heading towards winter, so it gets dark early, and I battle to ride after work.

I don't know about you, but the change in seasons affects my mood - when there is less daylight, less sun, i don't feel as great as i do when there is.

Work is always high pressure, huge workloads, little if any praise, people being selfish and stepping on other's toes. Lost it yesterday with a colleague and had a real rant at her. Was surprised how many things I managed to string together and how many emotions, feelings and gripes I actually had.

Sometimes when we hold things in for too long, or are dealing with a lot of pressure, it gets held in for too long, and then we have a breaking point, which is sounds like you may hane jsut been pushed to. It sucks that it happened at work, but that's usually where all the pressure is...
But it got me down. Feeling really down, and not sure if it's depression or what.

I have been lurking in the wings and posting where I can.
I haven't stopped T altogether yet, but wound down to every 2 weeks. And I think my T understands I'm nervous to stop T. There are a lot of uncertainties I have as a person, and we're working on that.

My meds have been doing a great job - so I must say I am fortunate.
Trying to get my bf to understand bipolar and its impact on me - which is not easy.

But on the whole, the last few months have been fairly stable; just a little difficult at the moment. I know you'll understand.

I'm frustrated at myself @ work as I CANNOT get through the work load. I upset others as I'm "letting them down". But I'm doing my best. My T thinks I may be a bit of a perfectionist and be too hard on myself.

I am the exact same way...I always want to be the best, to do the best, it's very hard for me to not give 200% when i am at work....and if I don't, then I feel like someone will be disappointed (and my last boss acted exactly like that).

Do what you can...the company will not fall down without you.
Try not to make promises of work that you can't keep.
We call it underpromising and overdelivering.
Sorry about the jumble... That's where my head is at.
So, that was a small update and a rant...