Today I feel meh. I still have not heard from the "on a break" guy and at this point I really hope he never calls. But some small sad part of me wants him to tell me he wants to stay with me and that he will make an effort. I know that is wishful thinking cause even if he wanted to stay with me he would not make an effort and he can and never give me what I need out of a relationship. But I am slightly co-dependent and really want someone in my life to hold me and make me feel cared about, though he never once told me he cared about me and never will. I am just sick of wasting my time in relationships that start out with potential but never go anywhere and I just end up doing the same thing over. After my ex of three years and I ended I did not date for 1.5 years and I was naive enough to think that I would meet my future husband soon and not have to worry about the ******** that is dating. I just want to be in a committed relationship with a happy guy who is not threatened by me and who wants to spend the remainder of his life with me-that is not asking too much.