Hi greensky: You've described the situation perfectly. This is the same experience that many people experience with medications. The "patient" feels sedated and unmotivated but still experiences his or her psychotic symptoms. Those of us observing the patient think they're so much better because they aren't acting out in challenging or frightening ways.

Your need to be empowered to decide when and how you're medicated is something I've also heard expressed by others.

I really highly recommend that you listen to this interview with Pat Deegan: http://www.madnessradio.net/madness-...sonal-medicine As she struggled with her recovery from psychosis, she used the medications that her doctor gave her as a tool to manage her symptoms. She would use them when her symptoms increased. She would break them into smaller pieces to get a smaller dose. BTW she never had a doctor who worked with her on this. She just experimented on her own. By letting the psychosis rise up she was able to learn to manage her symptoms without meds. At other times she needed the meds to keep her from being overwhelmed.

I'd recommend reading anything or watching any videos you can find by Pat Deegan. She's amazing, and she really raises my hopes for my son's recovery.