This is very similar to another thread I started entitled "No Help Left," or something similar, so I apologize, but I still need help regarding this issue, and I am really hoping someone here can help me.

What can I do if I am feeling suicidal? Hospitalization is not an option. I've been hospitalized twice, and neither time helped at all. The ER is not an option; I went once voluntarily, and they basically were no help. The second time I landed in the ER they dragged me off to jail because I was under the influence of drugs and alcohol and unruly. (I discussed that in a different thread.)

I have no family to talk to. My husband barely speaks to me, which is one of the reasons for my worsening depression. I have three kids, ages 13, 12, and 9, and of course I can't talk to them.

I'd been in therapy here, a new town (i.e., a different one from where I went to the ER and was hospitalized), but the therapy kind of "blew up" last January when my therapist got very confrontational about partial hospitalization, and I canceled all subsequent appointments. I haven't spoken to her since that day.

I truly feel like I have nowhere to turn.

Ugh; just realized I made a typo in the thread title. Sorry.